I was upstairs talking to Mills and Syd when our conversation made me realize something (this always happens when I’m there with them) I’ve become the person I thought I’d never be..always sitting at my desk avoiding conversation with most of the office. When my old boss told me this is what she chose to do years ago I thought she was nuts, I mean why say at your desk when there’s no much going on? Well now I know. There’s a LOT going on, mean spiteful talk, back stabbing, sneaky underhandedness *if I didn’t make that word up*
Is it cowardly to be at my desk? Am I simply laying low so I won’t be a victim? nah, I think not. They talk about me anyway. In simple terms….SCREW THEM.
Today I wore a hot mama skirt, not to be a hot mama, but simply because I could finally fit into it and still breathe. So what if I looked like a sausage…
This is the text I’ve gotten so many times this morning. While I appreciate what they’re saying(because I am super mom & dad with my kids) it’s oddly depressing. Who would have thought I’d end up in such a situation?
But to all of you men who actually step up to the plate and play your role as you should…HAPPY FATHER’S DAY!!! Enjoy every bit of it.
*sidebar* why are there only recliners, beer, and tools mentioned on father’s day commercials?* blech
Guess who went to work on her day off? Me! I realized it then turned it into a 1/2 day. I thought about all the things I needed to do and decided to do what I wanted do..Go see The Sex And The City movie! I loved the show and loved the movie. I’m not usually that type of girl but it may just be me being drawn to the pointless lables I’ll never afford. Anyhoo I went to Kona grill afterward. My mom tried sushi folks! Lemme tell you it was a HUGE development in trying to help her become more open minded. Today was a happy day.
She’s a wonderful person. One of our mutal friends commented on the fact that no matter how brief your visits are with her she always makes you feel that she is excited to see you and is interested in what’s going on in your life. We need more people like her.
I’ve gone through several changes over the past month and I’m unsure if they’re all good or bad. I sacrifice for my family so we all can live better but the selfish side of me wants what it wants.
I’m holding on by a thread so I won’t slip into the darkness my mind takes me to during times when I’m uncertain, or have difficult things to deal with. I don’t like that place. The best way to describe it all would be to say my thoughts seem all jumbled and it almost seems like I’m having arguments with myself in my head meanwhile asking God for forgiveness for any mean or selfish thought that crosses my mind.
Sometimes people piss me off so bad I feel rage that makes my blood boil. It’s almost like I can feel it bubble beneath my flesh. Then as quickly as it came it goes. Lucky for them.
Other times people make me happy, excited, thrilled that they are with me in that moment. I wish there were more moments like those.
There are times when I’m alone when I see a beautiful cloud, bird, field, or precious moment that reminds me how wonderful life can be.
I miss being in love. The sweet priceless kind that wraps you in warmth, and fills your nostrils with the scent of that one you hold dear.
All things happen in time and for a reason. This includes this present storm thats brewing in my head.
I’ll wait patiently because as they say..”This too shall pass.”
I went to visit Mills today and it made things so much better. He was in a hilarious mood and was making mini videos of everyone. I watched as many as i could and really cracked up. I won’t mention the things he said about poor Syd.
I noticed that he has “e-crushes” and he finds it so hard to believe. He’s a smart hottie and that isn’t a combo you find often. Sooner or later he’ll realize he’s hot then we’ll have to make bigger doorways for the swollen ego.
Our visit made my day. I need to make it a point to have them more often. I LOVE my friends.